There's a lot of distraction these days. I find myself reaching for the phone or watching YouTube videos when I'm supposed to be writing, practicing acting, and focusing on what's important. Sometimes i wonder if i have ADHD .. but i don't think so. I guess the real problem, when I'm writing, is that I'm afraid of writing something that is stupid. I always tend to criticize myself when it comes to writing and i just stop after a scene, or i write and wonder where I'm going with what im writing. I shake my head and then drift off to my phone/internet. Yeah, i have problems focusing.
I guess outlining helps. Sometimes when i write, i come up with these images on the side, and then i write those out. My mind wanders so many times that it's scary. Is there a cure for this?
Should i go phoneless / work in an area without wifi/internet connection?
I tend to write a lot when I'm taking the train (no internet!). Usually because it's the morning, my mind is fresh and i freewrite. I read back what i write when I'm at work or at home when it's really late and then i begin to edit. Then i leave it alone for a few weeks and read it to see if that's what i wanted. If not, i'll just rewrite.
I don't know why I'm writing this post. Maybe it's a way for me to sort out some bad habits and patterns i have.
I need to break 'em. And focus.