Yesterday, as I sat and observed others' performance in class, I thought about acting as a career for Asian Americans. I looked around me (saw nobody that looked like me) and thought about how everyone else will have greater odds in this industry because of their appearance. Thinking about this certainly distracted my performance. Sometimes I just can't help but think about the realities of this industry. On the other hand, I think about what it is still missing, and if I can bring something new to the table. What kind of artist am I? what kind of artist do I want to become? These are the questions I constantly have to ask myself. My boss asked this question last year, and I didn't have the answer to it. Now, I have a clearer sense of direction. I want to be an artist that write/act in my own material. I don't want to wait for another person to create or tell the story... I want to be a storyteller!
Right now, I'm in the midst of developing a script. I don't know whether to call it a screenplay or play. I did playwriting in college, but I focused a lot more on dialogue/character development rather than the form. I secretly wish it can go both ways.
(Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Had food poisoning this week and was busy working/watching new shows & movies. Ever since I started this blog, my goal was to update at least 2-3 times a week--ahh, wishful thinking!)