It has been three weeks since I came back from SF. I know I vlogged about it, but I figured I'll write out more of what I've been thinking during/after the trip. During the trip, at CAAMFEST, something got to my mind: what if I spend all my time working to become an artist? Live frugally, have less, concentrate more on the art and do nothing else. If Gladwell was right about that 10,000 hours, he must be referring to dedication, patience, and hard work. I wonder if I can do that... because don't I have to live as well? Shouldn't I work to support myself/have a social life?
These questions came in and out of my mind, and when I got back to ny, (i flew a red-eye back), the first thing I did was to run to the bakery and ask my mom to gauge her reaction. She said, "you need to make that decision on your own, and only if what you're studying is useful. You know what I'm referring to." Ok, hold up, is she still in denial what I'm studying? But I'm sure she knows. She just wants to kick the ball back to me. I somehow wished she woulda gave me an answer.
So it's still on my mind. Still! Even after three weeks. Is that god's way to tell me to follow my guts? This is another follow your heart moment. I guess I'm just scared what following my heart would lead to. Will I procrastinate? Will I really focus and do the work I said I'm gonna do?
Steve Jobs once said something like: you are already in it, you have nothing to lose.
I should think about this some more. Will update when I've reached a decision.